101st post

Wow. This is the first time I've managed to stick to a blog for 100 entries. :P Although this might have something to do with laziness as opposed to frequent updating.

Spring fling's this weekend, and the semester's coming to an end soon. I feel nostalgic a fair bit this semester. The innocent and carefree secondary school/jc days..

College is great for meeting a variety of interesting people though. :) Since I was rather cliquish back then.. always hanging out with my closest group of friends.

This isn't really a coherent post, but then again, I'm now in corporate finance lecture with my prof rambling on about returns..

My mum was here to visit over spring break and it was nice having her around, showing her my life in philly. I've just read all the novels by Low Kay Hwa, this Singaporean novelist, and it portrays the relationship between a woman and her mother, as well as depict how we often end up taking our mothers for granted. I admit that I do take my mum for granted at times, especially when I'm bothered about something else and ends up being short tempered with her.. I love my mum a lot, but I need to express that more often I suppose.

In any case, Low Kay Hwa’s novels are pretty good, and did touch me, even though certain twists in the plots are predictable and the storylines come as familiar, as though adapted from somewhere else. Even then, they did touch me, perhaps due to the 'Singaporeaness' of the stories. They brought home the heartland mentality.. the familiar terms which I no longer come across.. and in a way, they remind me that I'm a true blue Singaporean at heart.

I miss Singapore.

happy thoughts

Some things I'm happy for:

1) my new vaio's here and its really a LOT lighter than my old one
2) car's been fixed after the break in & is good as new
3) accounting midterm will be done with tonight
4) I'm meeting and working with new people
5) I'd be back in sg in 51 days!

:) Quite happy. Now I just need to get more work done AND shop less.

I've realized that I've been blogging about pretty much the same stuff for a while. It's time to move on! :)

I'm in florida for spring break right now; disney world is pretty cool. :D

When we look back it is always to our first love. The innocence of first love makes it exquisite. The world is new, everything is new, the experience of first love is like no other.

This does not mean, however, that it is always sweet. We place more trust in our first love than we should, regardless of rationality or logic. He's often unjustifiably placed on a pedestal- and his words count for too much. With time though, all becomes clearer.

Heartache, though, is a rite of passage we must go through in order to fully understand the vicissitudes of love..

NEED to stop whining. Whining isn't going to get anywhere. NEED to be more proactive.

Only now can I see what he meant. I guess I really AM slow.

Boooooooooo. School has only started for a week and things have been crazy. I've basically been kept busy from 9am-10pm for the past few days and its dead tiring. :(

I feel like just lounging around for the entire weekend but won't have the luxury of doing so..

2 pieces of good news though. I passed my math 241 placement- no more calc!! :) and finally got into dual. :)

Feeling slightly more positive. :D

Happy New Year!

Frohes Neu Jahr! :) Spent New Year's eve (Silvester) in Cologne with a bunch of Singaporeans including lovely xizhen who brought us around Cologne and Aachen. We counted down along the Rhein amidst self-fired fireworks. There were so many of them that it seemed as though it was an organized fireworks display. :) The enthusiam about Silvester is kinda contagious, but the debris that was left the next day is slightly disturbing. Broken beer bottles strewn on the streets, remnants of fireworks which have been set off.. We're now in snowy Berlin. Trekking through the city with the snow coming down strong is a rather interesting experience. It does snow in philly- but never as strong as this. Berlin still feels oh-so-familiar, despite my almost 5 months abscence. I guess I can now say that it is my favourtie German city of all. Nuremberg, Heidelberg, Bonn and Munich might be pretty, but none of them are as interesting and diverse as Berlin is. :D

I've 2 new year resolutions, which I vow to keep this time.
1) to forget him
2) to study hard and find an internship

:( hard work is required, I'd say.

Deutschland!

Ich liebe Deutschland! ;) Had an overdose of sausages, beer, ice cream, dried apples and all sorts of sweet stuff! :)) Shopping in Germany is great, as usual. Bought some stuff at massimo dutti and mango, but shall restraint till I get back to Munich on the 8th and can shop for real. :D Zara's really cheap! And I found a lovely coat at UCB that they're willing to hold for me till I get back.. Why can't shopping in the states be as good as this?? Despite the strong euro and the lousy exchange rate..

Done!

It's all over. Ended finals yday. It does feel kinda strange to not have to study. :D

He's leavingggggg. :(

On a brighter note, nyc trip today! :)

It seems as though no time at all has past since the start of the semester.. so much has happened, but yet it appears surreal that it's now the reading days. Finals will be over in no time at all, and what have I accomplished thus far? That's a good question. I guess at least I can say that I now know myself better. ;) That seems to be about it though..

I should really be concentrating on studying, but then again, when have I really concentrated on studying?

Drats. I still care even though I pretend I don't.

I NEED to FOCUS. Finals are just around the corner and I really NEED to do well but WHY AM I NOT STUDYING???? :(

thanksgiving

This year I am grateful for:

1) My lovely roommates and gina who keep me grounded
2) Not being in a r/s I'm unhappy in
3) Joan- my "big sis"
4) Frannie visiting for thanksgiving
5) My lovely new coach bag :)
6) Having a manageable amount of schoolwork :(next sem is gonna be so bad ):
7) My lovely pals in singapore who offered tons of support
8) Boon who said I could call him anytime at all- and wasn't upset when I woke him up at 7am on his off day
9)Mar mar my utterly lovable darling
10) Ben and russ who tried so hard to lighten things up

:( I hate it when others comment about my driving, but I suppose it might have been really bad today. Driving at 4am without sleep is never a good idea, but then again, why couldn't he have been more understanding???

I guess I'm now feeling better. Small little everyday things are starting to make me smile again. There was this guy who went back to catch the door open for me after he has walked through it when he realized that I was going to go through it. It's a really small thing, but it somehow cheered me up when I notice people being nice to strangers. It's just small little touches like this that make the world the nice place I like to envision it as.

I am sick sick sick of studying. Not that I've been doing much of that though. I get distracted more often than not and end up going out for dessert instead, as evidenced by the last 2 nights. :P Or second dinners. ahhhhhh. I need to start doing more work and eating less before I turn into a pig.

Anyways. Yday night was fun. :) White dog with the gals- our first this sem with all 3 of us present.. and standing out in the cold chatting after that is sth I'd rmbr for some time still. :P

I've had a rather strange encounter today. I was studying in the bookstore.. and this pair came up to me asking me for help with math. The guy apparently remembers me from calc class.. and asked if I could help with his friend's stat qn.. Haha. I guess I'm not as invisible as I seem to think that I am..

It's not easy to face up to the cold harsh truth, but one is definitely better off doing so. There are certain moments and feelings I miss and will treasure in a way, but I recognize that I'm better off. I need to feel motivated if I still want to do well this semester.

No more nua-ing around!

It's over. Mixed feelings abound, but I'm okay- I think. :)

I wish things could be as simple as they used to be.

Here are some pictures taken yesterday. :) I've been too lazy to bring my camera around for most of the semester thus far.. so these are pretty much all I've taken this sem. School has been kinda crazy. I dun like math. Not anymore. 5 math intensive classes is just BAD. :( Other than that, life's good though. :) Fall break's in 2 weeks!!


In the subway..
Patou, where we had dinner. It was really sub-par.
My favourite gals at Patou.

:)Gina and I in our coordinating black and white outfits.Guys and sparklers at the clubsg mid-autumn festival celebration after dinner.